Youth this week was very full. I don’t mean student-wise. I totally didn’t count the students. I’m really bad about that. The subject was really deep and we covered a lot. I saw some comments on MySpace that make me feel like I should share about a specific part of the service. I’ve started showing more videos because they help to illustrate my points in some pretty spectacular ways. This past week we watched this video:
A couple of the students were asking what it meant and I explained it. I talked about my first real relationship. I talked about how quickly I fell in love and how much it hurt when she broke-up with me, how great it felt when she came back and how much worse it hurt when she left again. It was a couple of months before I was ready to date again and then I really wasn’t ready. I went through a series of insignificant relationships. I never dated a girl for more than 3 weeks and immediately broke-up with them if they started acting too lovey. When I started dating the future Mrs_theGeek she pursued me. She was cute and seemed nice so I didn’t push back. She told me she loved me and I literally told her she didn’t. It took months before I would let her say she loved me and months more before I said it back.
I had been broken and hurt even without sex. That’s the thing with relationships. We get involved and get hurt and don’t want to be vulnerable.
The change in my life didn’t come from the future Mrs_theGeek. I would have run the first time she said she loved me if I hadn’t already changed. God began a work in me. It didn’t change me completely over night but with time I become vulnerable again. I stepped out of my fortress and opened myself to Love.
God is good and He wants us to be open and vulnerable because we need Him and each other. That takes openness and vulnerability.