Ever worry that you are going to hell? I am specifically talking to Christians who believe that God has saved them. Today I dealt with this twice. In my Yong Adult small group we went through chapter 5 in Crazy Love by Francis Chan. This chapter, more than any other, really challenged me to examine my life as a Christian. Everyone in the group really struggled through it as well.
I think the biggest thing is to remember that our relationship with God is based on grace. We don’t earn it at all. Often we begin to think that we are doing well and so somehow deserve heaven. I think it is good for us to come to these places where we realize that we don’t deserve it and that we are totally dependent on God.
Anyways, I said that today I wrestled with my final destination twice. I was a very bad Youth pastor today. It wasn’t something I did on purpose. Actually that is a big part of the problem. I was involved with a funeral today. I mentioned on Monday that a wonderful woman died and today was her funeral. I was a pall bearer and ran sound & video. I was speaking with the daughter (who is a very nice lady as well and in a few months I’ll be asking her and her husband to help in Youth) about what they wanted played and when and I said the dumbest thing ever.
They had a photo show with music that they wanted played as the family came in until the pastor got up to speak. Then I was to fade the music but leave the video running till the singing when I switched to displaying the songs. I said something that I always say when it comes to turning off the audio. “So when pastor steps up you want me to kill the sound and ….” Yeah that was the worst choice of words ever. I said as much and apologized profusely but it gets worse. Then I said, “I could just dig a hole and bury … nope, I’m done I am just gonna walk away and stop talking.”
Yeah I’m pretty certain that I’m lucky the ground didn’t open and drop me straight into the worst part of hell for that. I really can’t believe I said something so insensitive much less two things in a row like that.
Anyone got anything that can top my faux pax?